THINSPIRATION

I thought i'd share some thinspo. Searching for some is the only thing that has kept my sane today...remind myself of why i'm doing this to myself, you know?

anyway, here are some poems about living with Ana. I didn't write them, but i can relate.

1
I want to kill myself,
for what I have become.
I want to start all over,
and finally live a life.
I’ve lost control of all my actions,
I don't know where to turn.
Should I end it all?
Or wait it out?
I always do the opposite,
of what I want to do,
and I can’t understand...
Why?

2
They watch us
The ever perfect beings
of heavenly charm and grace
they may see us
but do they know us?

oh Alice
tumbling down your rabbit hole
oh Alice
will we ever reach your goal?

beings full of perfection
don't see the beauty you see
simple vows, nothing more then...
always under observation
eating invisible meals
off of empty plates
and drinking nothing out of glass
isn't it lovely to see things shrink?

oh Alice
tumbling down your rabbit hole
oh Alice
will i ever be as perfect as you?

have i gone too far?
i can't believe in normal any longer
i want to give up
i want to give in
but i'm so close
only inches away
so i'll never give up
i'll never give in
i'm alive, but dead
nothing more
so i want to give up
so i want to give in
Alice, beautiful Alice
what am i to you?
i want to give up
i want to give in
i want to give up
i want to give in
i want to give up
i want to give in
i want to give up
i need to give in

into your hunger
into your way
i'll fight any strife
that will cross my my path
i am yours
now and forever

oh Alice
tumbling down your rabbit hole
oh Alice
can't you see what you do to me?

hold me close
thinspire me to do your will
Alice hold me close
Alice hold me close

oh Alice
tumbling down your rabbit hole
oh Alice
won't you take away my imperfections?

my schedule
so irregular
i'm anything but normal
iv'e sold my soul to you
iv'e given you everything i am
my beautiful angel of pain

oh Alice
tumbling down your rabbit hole
oh Alice
you're all i ever wanted
oh Alice
spiraling out of control
oh Alice
i see how wrong i am
oh Alice
i want to live again
oh Alice
iv'e fallen out of control
fallen for freedom

oh Alice
take me back


3
I'm not starving myself,
I'm perfecting my emptiness.
And no feeling of substance inside myself
Can compare to the feeling of lonliness.

4
Happy or sad,
Rich or poor,
It's better being thin.
The only freedon left is the freedom to starve,
And time spent wasting
Is not wasted time.
Calories can't make you happy,
And it's the mind that makes the body.
Besides,
Thin is in.

5
Hunger hurts,
but starving works,
And hearts live to be wounded.
Craving is only a feeling
Cause pain is only as real as I want it to be.

6
Beautiful bones:
I won't stop
Until I see pure bones.
I see this is the only way to reach the top.
Goddess of willpower.
Though now I'm so weak,
I'm not weak-minded.
Remember:
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels
Nothing,
Period.